Famous 14 :)***

13-03-2012, 10:30

Finally the time has come - I'm 14 years old ! ;D

Oh man, a wonderful feeling, to leave the unlucky numer 13 behind me. Just awesome, pure awesomness ;D (Does this word exist anyway?! :D) 

The year of being adult enough to go in the prison ... Not sure, if I really like this, because I love it to act like a little child ;D 

For being honest, I think, every adult has a little child in his character, but the adults hiding their childness to good. But I'm not, I'm sick of being somebody else than me, and only me.

I'm really glad to leave this year behind me. 

It was only a big up and down. 

Too many things I've lost, too less things, I have won. 

But enough things to stay here. I know, the most people, who maybe reading this, don't know me in real life, but ... I can say, that in this year I've almost broken in pieces, my heart was bleeding many times, my soul was not really there.

I can't imagine, what I would have done, if my Best Friends and my family weren't there for me.

Aylin, Jasmin, Ala, Ola, Mom and Dad - I wanted to thank you. You were always there for me, when I was in trouble. When I cried because of A.R. When I just had enough of living in Germany and missed Poland. When I was puking because of all the people, who dislike me or just - and that was kind of worse - ignoring me. 

I was sick of being me.

But now this is over.I'm so happy about it, to have you as my people. I'm sure, you will never leave me alone, you will be always there, when I need you. You are just the most important persons in my life, and I hope, I will never lose you. I'm scared of losing you. You are my medicine, when I'm depressed.And because of you I can say, that I've changed in this year. 

The girl, everybody wanted to see in me, the little shy mouse, who always was quiet and was pushed around, is finally gone. Finally I'm not scared of being me, because I have your protecting hands. 

Thank you. For everything. ♥♥♥

But enough about the past. Bygones are bygones, right?

Soooo, my 14th birthday was not very exciting - it was just normal. I've never liked it to celebrate my Birthday, I don't know why. Maybe, because I hate it to get older and less childish?

The phone and my cell phone were ringing all day long. Always, when I picked up, there was a voice, which was calling ,Happy B-Day!', and wished me many, many nice things - the most often wish was a nice boyfriend. ;D Ha ha, very funny.

And I was right - kind of - I have got these books for B-Day:

Acrosse The Universe

I've read it already - it's almost as good as The-Hunger- Games- Trilogy :D

But I don't like it, that the boy, who is called Elder in America, is called Junior in Germany!

Why?! Please, tell me why?!

Perfect Chemistry

Yeah ... Actually, I wanted to give this book to my BF Jasmin for B-Day, because I love the second novel Rules Of Attraction, because it was not that romantic - and my BF loves romantic, so I thought, she would love this book! But at first: she doesn't feel like to read, and second: she wants to buy the presents by herself.

Uff -.- 

The problem is, I heard the audio book on YouTube (and this girl has done REALLY; REALLY GOOD work), and this book is just ... known for me. Guys, I heard the audio book more than 4 times! Of course I know the story then!

Bah!

Beautiful Creatures

 I was not exspecting THIS! :D

Okay, allright, I heard a part of the book in YouTube, but I did not know, my mother KNEW that! :D

OMG, I love the cover! Lena looks just ... yeah, pretty. The green eyes are even more lightful, if you see the book live :D Let's see, how the book will be ...

I don't know, if I will get the two other books, Speak and Lemonade Mouth. Actually my BF (this one, I wanted to give Perfect Chemistry) wanted to go in the Thalia-bookshop and order this book. But her mother is sometimes an big, fat, real BEEP, so Jas have had to stay home, because of any homework, she already has done. 

Yes, very, very logical, hm?

And Lemonade Mouth has to be ordered by me, anyway. I just always forget to do it. Typically Sana! ;D

My other BF wants to give me money, I think. Or mascara ...? Oh, I don't know, it's just, that she is not a fan of reading at all and she gets goose bumps, even if she is in the near of a bookshop. Yeah, so I'm very curious.

So ...

But apart of the presents, my new year starts with a big, fat flu and headache - almost three days long!

Because of that I'm staying at home, sitting here now and coughing like a sick smoker.

Uff ...

Happy B-Day for me, hm?

Sana